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Nano Update

This is posted on my blog at the ning and I’m reposting it here so you guys can see it. Not sure if you can on the ning or not:

WORD COUNTAGE…
Total: 32,228
Today: 5,070

I KNOW IT IS A LOT. I’m finally caught up and a little ahead again, so I’m proud. BUT this comes at the cost of everything good writing should be. I think I’ve finally learned the meaning of quantity over quality. I’ve also learned the meaning of after I finish this novel I am never looking at it again it is going in the trash for serious. There are so many issues with this novel. So, so many.

Shall I enumerate?

1. The plot.
2. The characters.
3. The writing.

Dang.

Now I’ve started something (that I won’t be working on too much until Nano is over) that I hope/think will be a lot better. I actually started writing this novel before but I did it a bit differently. I’m reworking the ideas in my head and making it something I can do. Problem is, it’s really sort of dark and SRS SUBJECTS and after The Empty Bottles I thought I was done with serious issue novels, but I guess not. It has a few of the themes I’m always writing about and I just have to figure out a way to write it best. I have to work on the ages of the characters and the path that the novel will take and the fact that it’s going to be told in past tense, which is a tense I don’t work with too often. There’s also the fact that I might be telling a dual story – the THEN and NOW if you will, and I’m not quite sure how to do that or even if it’ll work for this. I’ll probably end up doing just a straight story with flashbacks, but who knows.

NOW, BACK TO THE NANO AT HAND.
I am a little bit ahead now and all my words are garbage and I’m trying, as I type, to be really, really okay with this. I’m trying to remind myself that it DOESN’T MATTER, that all I wanted out of November was to prove to myself that I could accomplish NaNoWriMo, even if it’s with a really, really crappy novel. Even if it’s 50,000 words of suck (to be honest my novel didn’t REALLY start sucking until the 25,000 mark), I will be okay with finishing, with writing so much in a month and proving to myself that I can do it.

There. That’s a healthy attitude, isn’t it?

Also: more enumeration on the problems.

They say to write what you know and I’m not exactly. I mean, I never do. Divorce crops up so often in my books that you’d think my parents had been married five times each. But with this book the main character, though I like her in a strange sort of way, isn’t someone I’d ever hang out with in real life. I can’t even relate to her emotions, which is a problem. It’s hard to make a novel about someone like that ring true when you’re, um, me.

Also: it’s not the kind of book I read. YA, yes. Contemporary, yes. But it’s a teenage love story, nothing more nothing less, and I always find myself bored with those books especially when it’s so obvious (as it is in this book) that it really is TEENAGE love and therefore INFATUATION. I don’t read many books like that because they tend to bore me. You should never write a novel that bores even you.

More on the characters: what the frick was I doing trying to write about the cool kids? I am so entirely out of my league here. If I’m going to write about the cool kids I have to make it funny, and this is not funny. This is pathetic whiny emosplosion with a touch of high school.

Hey, BoBBB

That’s right, folks, it’s the best of bahbahbecca. Oh, Twitter, we love you. Oh, and these are ALL from @bahbahbecca. All of them. FOLLOW HER.

• I have a major crush on Taylor Lautner. I’ve accepted and embraced this fact.
• @ninjajordyn Well your 13 year old cousin has good taste in men.
• Who has two thumbs and hates John Dewey? THIS GIRL.
• Oh and I also still hear the voice in my head when I said “Babies! AHHHHH!’ I just love babies, who doesn’t?
• Catch Phrase says: Mount Everest. I say: The place where the president’s faces are carved. FAIL.
• @ninjajordyn Thank you. I know college has done me good. =)
• @ninjajordyn You want a pickle? Whatttt?
• @ninjajordyn BABIES! YAY!
• Apparently I must not think about you if I’m over you. F that. I’m going to think about you anyways and loathe myself simultaneously.
• When texting my sister I said “Hello there sibling.” I’m cool.
• What if I just dropped out of college and became a stripper? I feel like that’d be productive.
• Sister: How do you feel? Me: Like crap, but thanks for asking Sister: Stop being sick, you’re not allowed to go to the hospital. Not cool.
• Every time it tells me that my tweet failed to sent I get very angry at twhirl. Two seconds later after it sent I’m back to loving it.
• @ninjajordyn Suck it up cupcake. When you’re still sick two weeks from now then we can talk lol.
• My roommate just whispered in a very weird voice “I need to wash my body.” Crazyyy stuff going down in Ponce.
• @koriannespeaks So holy crap on a cracker Terri is crazycakes/wackadoodle/crazy nutballs.
• I always make an effort to say funny shit via twitter, it has finally paid off because I have been favorited. haha.
• Pretzels. They are saving my life.
• @jordynface I love how I get the full experience of your thought process although you’re perfectly capable to edit it to make it less crazy.
• This woman needs to stop working at Sheets & Things and get a real job. Then she can complain about not having money. #glee
• @jordynface Sometimes you talk like yoda.
• @jordynface I don’t see the box.
• @jordynface I found the box.
• I’m making Colleen’s pants vibrate by updating twitter right now.
• I just saw a sign that says “Old Beach Rd” and the sign under it says “No Beach Access.”

School and Haikus

Oh dear, universe.

I don’t even know what to blog about. I’m stuck.

I’m tired.

I’m really tired. I’m really not looking forward to school today. Haven’t been in in weeeeks (two. maybe one and a half?) and I’m a little scared of going back. One of my professors already told me he dropped me (and I’m like askdhfduaioudkjd dude, I told you I was sick and I told you I was going to meet with my pediatric cardiologist and I told you I have a stupid 504 form and I AM A MASTER AT MAKING UP WORK, PLEASE DON’T DROP ME!) (rant over.) and I’m a little worried about my other professors dropping me too. Or, you know, the very real possibility that I might now fail my classes.

can.not.fail.omg.

HAIKUS! I have more to write still, but…

Monopoly is
only a game unless you
aren’t the one winning.

This is a haiku.
It’s about chocolate milk.
Yum, chocolate milk.

Medical dramas:
they make hospitals seem cool.
Hospitals aren’t cool.

I know. I still have more to write. I need to do haikus on the following topics (these are from the long list of topics I suggested for Khy’s research paper…)

Star Trek
The Beatles
Kleptomaniacs or Polygamy
Morse Code
Loch Ness Monster
Disappearance of Amelia Earhart

Conversation I Just Had

Dad: Aaah.
Me: What are we aaahing?
Dad: You cleaned the kitchen.
Me: …you were actually here.
Dad: Really?
Me: Yeah.
Dad: Did not pay any attention.

In other news, I’m a couple thousand words behind in Nanowrimo, I’m almost done watching ALL of Arrested Development, I’m still not loving the show Chuck but I continue to watch it in the background of my writing time, and this article is meeping hilarious. Wow. That was bad even for me.

CLUB SAUCE!!

This Day is Bananas

Dear Blog, I feel like crying. I’m dizzy (so dizzy) and more worn out than I’ve been in years. I’m hesitant to bring it up because people tend to kind of freak out, but… my health is acting up.

I don’t think it’s going to be anything HUGE – they’ll probably just want to do a few tests and adjust my medication (which needs to be done anyway), but I am trying to get in to see my pediatric cardiologist a few months earlier than I was planning. (Only like a month and a half early, really.)

And I’m so dizzy and I can’t think to do anything*

[definition of "anything" = schoolwork. writing. basically anything productive or that requires brain power. mah brain is quite scrambled; i'm typing worse than normal.]

so I decided to take a nap. I mentioned the worn out bit, right?

WORST NAP EVER, BLOG!

There were two of them – TWO OF THEM! Plus her. And them. The them are people I DON’T EVEN KNOW but they were MEAN omg. And I stepped on the lawn that you weren’t supposed to step on and everyone looked at me funny and it was so awkward and OH.

MY.

GOSH.

I’m just glad it was a dream. That’s all I’m saying. Because I woke up and I wanted to cry, cry, cry it was so horrible. And then I sat up and remembered how dizzy I was and why I took a nap in the first place and I wanted to cry even more.

THIS DAY IS SUPER FUN, GUIS. /sarcasm

Welcome Back, World

I feel like I need this blog again. I stopped writing (in here) for so long and there were quite a few reasons and I don’t want to talk about them, but…

sometimes I just need to write.

My rules for this (new) (old) blog are thusly:

1. As always, I will be honest.
2. I will write whenever I want and the entries will be as long as I want them to be. No pressure, yo.
3. Sometimes they will be funny, sometimes serious. Just like before.

Your rules are:

1. Be respectful in your comments.
2. If you know me in real life and you’re reading this… um, hi, this is awkward.

So yeah. Hi.

A new post will be coming atcha shortly.