Different Life

I was eleven the first time it happened, the first time I felt like I wanted to run out of my life and into another one. I was sitting in a room in a childrens’ hospital in Phoenix, a room with Dr. Suess characters painted on the walls. I was there and my parents were [...]

Solitary Island

My granma, amazing lady that she is, sent me the graduation announcement that was in the paper for the class of 2008. The one with everyone’s photos. She sent it in a manilla envelope, an envelope I had been looking forward to getting.
A few days ago I threw it away, unopened.
I don’t need to look [...]

The Teen Years

The slow-in-coming but finally here third installment in my Years series. This follows years seven through twelve, which follows zero through six.
Year Thirteen.
I am a teenager, but it doesn’t seem the landmark age it is for me like it is for others. I am still a kid. It is seventh grade and though I still [...]

Without Reason

I wake up this morning, perfectly fine, my long hair everywhere. I put on some jeans and a t-shirt, an orange baseball cap, a hoodie. I get in the car and my mom and I drive Taylor the Lovely to her first day of high school.
Her. First. Day. Of. High School.
My baby sister is a [...]

Sure of This

I’m talking to my friend today. We’re walking through the Barnes and Noble, drinking our iced teas and escaping from the heat and talking. She mentions something about people who are sure of themselves, who know what they want out of life, who know where they’re headed.
Like me.
And it makes me think.
I have an answer [...]

Life Choices

I’m at a strange time in my life. A time when other girls around me who are my age are getting married or having boyfriends or being kindasorta engaged. A time when everyone is pairing off. When childhood is being left behind. And I’m not sure what to think of it.
I guess I might have [...]

Falling Apart

I am aware of things, like the way my heart beats in my chest and the way my breathing is, that most people aren’t. I’m aware of head rushes when I stand up, of my heart beating oddly when I panic. I’m aware of being tired. I’m aware of being unnoticeably different.
I’m aware that this [...]

My Dandelion Wish

There’s a phrase, a mantra of sorts, that continually runs through my mind. Sometimes it’s like I believe that if I think it hard enough, they’ll hear it, they’ll get the message without me having to actually tell them.
Please be okay.
Not that telling them would be the worst thing. It’s just that we don’t talk [...]

Happy Music Post

Good morning all.
The past week has overwhelmingly been a flurry of what seems to be very bad luck. Taking my car to the mechanic, losing my cellphone, missing meetings, being locked out of my house. It was eventful.
But now my mom is home. And my dad is home. And last night I went to the [...]

Questionableness

I’m stealing a question-thingy from Erin. And taking full liberties to change/discard the questions as I see fit.
Because I’m fun like that.
1. How has blogging changed your life?
I’ve made some blog-friends and discovered other blogs I like to read. Plus it’s a wonderful place to vent/rant/ramble. 
2. What do you do before bedtime?
Usually I write, or [...]